I’ve Lost the Will to Live…

I’ve lost the will to live… that’s what I told myself at mile 7 of my 9 mile run last week. I was so wiped out, I pondered Ubering home but then my inner stubbornness kicked in and I finished my run.  Today was mile 10 day. I felt great the ENTIRE run. No willing myself to die this time. Why the huge difference, I asked myself.  The difference is routine,  consistency and discipline. I allowed myself to fall out of routine and THAT was the game changer.

When training for a big race or just eating Paleo in general, routine and discipline is key.  It’s important you eat right – natural, healthy food that will fuel your body. You must stay hydrated. And I’m not talking the night before your big workout. Daily Hydration helps your body function properly, it flushes the toxins out of your body, it also gives you good skin. For those of you looking for the fountain of youth or who ask why I have such a nice complextion, I’ll tell ya that fountain of youth is no further than the water on your refrigerator door, faucet, etc. Limit your alcohol consumption or cut it completely. I promise you will survive; a glass of sparkling water with lime is just as refreshing. Lastly, make sure you are getting enough sleep and also allow your body time to rest. Rest days are built into a training program for a reason. And if you are injured, for Pete’s sake, allow your body to heal (yes I hear your groans friends and family…). I don’t always follow this. I’m recovering from a cracked rib and separated shoulder and am currently only allowed to walk/run until I’m fully rehabbed. And you know what? My pace has decreased because I’m allowing my body to heal!! Allow your body to heal. It will thank you.

Every run/workout is different. You will have good days and bad ones. But you can increase your odds of good workouts by taking care of your body. After all, it’s the only one you’ve got.

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Paleo and traveling

This time of year, we all have trips on the mind. Hopefully not the trip I had a couple of weeks ago. Right down the stairs. Cracked a rib, had a mild concussion and a HUGE contusion on my leg. But back to trips of the fun kind. If you are like me and on a special diet, there is an element of planning you must do. Long gone are the days of just hopping in a car or a plane and just grabbing a bite. I can’t trust I will find what I need so here is what I do. Yup, more planning:

Whether traveling by car or plane, bring food with you. The length of the trip determines what I bring. If I’m traveling by car, I like to bring a cooler with some already prepped food: eggs, compliant lunch meat, lettuce, bacon, my ranch dressing, chopped or roasted veggies. I also bring nuts, Lara Bars, beef jerkey, plantain chips and almond butter. This way, no matter where I am, if I’m in a pinch I can make a meal. Here’s an example of what I take with me. I fill a larger container with some of my provisions. It goes from my fridge to the cooler back to the fridge – everything contained in one spot.

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In that container I have things like salad dressing, guacamole, apples, eggs, etc. you get the idea.

If I’m going by plane I make lettuce wraps ahead of time.  Or I may make paleo breakfast cookies or bars. I also know I can hit up a Starbucks for fresh fruit or grab a salad someplace if I need to. But I try to not count on that because if there is some sort or delay, I don’t want to be stuck without food.

Whether I’m traveling or not, I ALWAYS have food with me whether it be nuts, a Larabar, dried fruit or an apple. ALWAYS! Better to prepared, I say.

Once you arrive to your location, what do you do? I try to look up menus before hand so we don’t end up in a place I can’t eat. And never be afraid to ask to alter a meal to suit your needs. Most restaurants are happy to comply. Last night I ordered a grass fed burger without the bun, cheese or condiments. It had bacon and a fried egg on top and I swapped out the fries for broccoli and had a fantastic dinner!!

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Traveling while on a paleo diet is totally doable. You just have to do your homework and plan ahead. Organization is the key. It’s still work but once you get the hang of it, it becomes second nature. Now my family is used to it and knows it’s just what mom has to do to keep healthy.  You can do it too. Honest. Happy traveling!

 

 

 

Now what?

Perhaps you have been dealing with an autoimmune disease for some time and are tired of all the meds. Or your doctor suggested you follow an autoimmune protocol diet (AIP) or paleo or Whole30 and you don’t know where to begin. Here are some tips to get you on your way.

  1. If you have not already done so, seek out or asked to be referred to an Integrative or Functional Medicine doctor. There are lots of certificated specialists and that is probably just fine, however I’m more comfortable knowing who I see is also an MD. At your first visit you will be assessed and odds are they will run a bunch of tests, including a food allergy panel. This is to give them a baseline to see where you are. For me, I was then put on a very restrictive Elimination Diet for three months. I was also told to start eating as much fermented food as possible to start healing my gut.  All of this was so that we could bring down the inflammation levels and calm my body down so I could heal. After my first visit, I left with tons of notes and handouts and even more questions. This is where my inquisitive nature kicked in as I pondered “Now what?”
  2. “Now What” – Fortunately there is now so much information available. Unfortunately there is now so much information available.  How do you know where to turn and which information is correct? Some people claim things are AIP or Whole30 compliant and yet those things are not.  First of all, your doctor should have given you a list of compliant foods.  Keep that.  You will be referencing that often.  In my searches, I found that Against All Grain has been my go to for everything.  She keeps all the different food allergies and diets in mind when creating recipes and her cookbooks also delineate which recipes are nut free, AIP, etc.  She’s a great resource! http://againstallgrain.com/  Through her blog, I was introduced to the Whole30 and Melissa Hartwig.  Melissa’s tough love and humor caught my attention and I’ve followed her ever since.  https://whole30.com/ And I’m now also stalking Chrissa from Physical Kitchness because she cooks like I do! Simple, easy meals. http://physicalkitchness.com/
  3. The next step is to go through your pantry and refrigerator. Remove any foods which are not compliant. And I don’t mean by eating them. Throw them away and then restock your pantry with the following to begin with.  Almond flour, coconut flour, coconut milk, arrowroot powder, compliant spices, nut butters… you can also go to my previous blog for a complete list.
  4. Meal plan. They key to staying “on the wagon” is planning ahead and staying organized. Once you get he hang of it, it becomes a habit and you get better at it. I sit down on Saturday and plan what I’m going to cook all week for breakfast, lunch and dinner and then shop accordingly. I always keep my pantry and fridge stocked with the basics and fill in with fresh produce and protein. I also play meals so that tonight’s dinner can become tomorrow’s lunch or even breakfast. Learn to change your mindset of what breakfast should be. I also take leftovers and turn them into other things. Tonight’s tri tip will become tomorrow’s steak salad. Or mixed with scrambled eggs and sweet potatoes. We don’t waste food in this house. Don’t be afraid to try new things. Blueberries and eggs are good honest! I would have never discovered this if I wasn’t open to trying different recipes. I’ve also discovered plantain chips. Where have these been my whole life?

Some days will be easier than others. Be kind to yourself and embrace the journey.  Know that knowledge is power and arm yourself with as much information as you can. I didn’t have anyone to walk me through this. I had to discover all of this alone.  And because of this I hope that what I’ve been through will be of help to others.

Becasue it is now summer and vacations are upon us I’m sure you are wondering how to deal with travel and eating out. Tomorrow I will share my tips and hacks on how to survive both.

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Embrace the lessons

Still sick. It’s a sinus infection gone sideways and now my jaw is locked. Seriously. Can’t make this stuff up! And now I don’t care if I never see another bowl of applesauce again. COMPLIANT applesauce because even though I can eat precious little right now, I’m still keeping to the plan.

A dear friend said she’s praying “It’s enough Lord” for me. No kidding, right?! But that got me to thinking… perhaps the prayers should be that I embrace the lessons and be grateful for the journey. Because it’s through this journey that I see goodness and hope. People are now reaching to me for help with their illnesses. Friends are sharing what I’ve been through with others and encouraging them to reach out to me. And that they actually want to hear what it is I have to say is still hard for me to wrap my head around…

I’ve been praying for the Lord to show me His purpose in all of this and every day it becomes more clear. Perhaps not only is each experience meant to make us stronger but we are to then to go forth and share those lessons with others. And that is now where I am in my journey. Talking to people. Sharing what I’ve learned and where to turn for help.  Holding their hand through this as someone held mine. Modeling that having a chronic illness does not have to mean the end of the world but that it is instead the start of a new one full of promise and hope.

I’m not perfect. Dealing with my illness is hard and I have to be ever vigilant. And there are times, such as now where I could easily give up and stop hoping. Times where I don’t want to do any of this anymore if I’m going to be brutally honest. But what keeps me going is hope. Hope that I have more good days than bad. Hope that I can make a difference in this world. In somebody’s life. Hope that all of this isn’t for nothing.

So whatever it is you are going through. Be grateful for it for there is a lesson just waiting to be embraced. One which could change your life for the better.

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“It’s the climb”

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This morning, “It’s the Climb” by Miley Cyrus came to mind because I’m in the middle of a blip. Oral thrush and fungul sinusitis. More prednisone and an antifungal. My diagnosis yesterday. Ugh. I had a bit of pity party because how much more? I had to step a bit out of myself to find the answer to this one. The bottom line is I suffer from chronic, autoimmune disease. It’s always going to be  there and my normal will never be just normal. And the truth here is that although I’m currently sick, I’m much better than I was this time last year and that I’m going to have blips along the way. What counts is how I handle those blips that determines the success of what I’m doing.   Some days I handle it with grace and other not so much.  But I’m human, right? No matter the day, the most important advice I can give you is to be kind to yourself.  I can’t control this illness anymore than I can control the weather.  However, I CAN control the severity by how I treat my body. By what I put in and on my body.  By staying positive even when I want to curl up into a ball and cry. By taking an active role in my health, I am beating this and I will continue to beat this because what other choice do I have, really.

So, today I thought I would share some simple tips with you which make my life a bit easier and all of this less daunting.

  • Get out of bed.  No really.  That’s it.  I have RA. Things creak and hurt.  And right now I don’t feel so hot.  However, get out of that bed.  Move.  The more you move, the better you are going to feel.  And, I’m going to say it, the better your “system” will work, if you get my drift. And gut health is key here (more on that another day).  Those endorphins will also make you feel better.  REALLY! Also, getting dressed and made up can make you feel better about yourself.  Sometimes it really is all about those little things.
  • PLAN AHEAD!  Eating paleo is not something you can’t just do on the fly.  It isn’t.  But, it can be with a little prep work.  When you get home from the store, dice those veggies, spiralize the squash, prep the sauces. Trust me, you will be glad you did during the week.  Because now that you’ve prepped, you have paleo fast food at your fingertips!
  • Meal prep – This doesn’t have to be fancy OR difficult.  In fact, some times dinner is something as simple as a fried egg over leftovers.  I’ve found that we no longer waste food.  Tonight’s dinner could become tomorrow’s breakfast or lunch or repurposed for dinner.  But, here’s a few hacks for you:
    • Riced cauliflower – You can buy it ALREADY done.  Yup.  Just open the bag and you are set.  However, to save money, I rice up a few batches and store in my freezer. That way I always have cauli-rice on stand-by.  You can also mix this up by ricing some sweet potato or carrots as well, just for variety.
    • Spiralized noodles – You can also buy these already done.  I like to keep in the fridge for whenever the mood strikes but generally I spiralize ahead of time and store in the fridge.
    • Cook up you sweet potatoes and spaghetti squash ahead of time in the microwave or Instant Pot. Still just as good and way quicker.
    • Spiralize veggies and then roast them in the oven.  Once cooked, throw into a bowl and add a beaten egg or two and then cook up in your waffle iron.  YUM!
    • Do you have veggies in your fridge that are looking sad.  You know what I’m talking about…  That little bit of cauliflower, baby carrots, broccoli and asparagus left over in the back of the bin.  Take it all, toss with a little olive oil and roast for 15 mins at 425 degrees.
  • Travel – Never EVER leave the house without food in your purse, bag, whatever. Let me repeat that. Never EVER leave the house without food in your purse, bag, whatever.  I always have a compliant snack in my purse and I always carry protein.  And I never leave home without water.  If I’m traveling long distances, I pack more snacks. Never get caught with nothing to eat.  Do you know what happens when you do that?  You eat crap and then you FEEL like crap.  You can go to Danielle Walker’s Against All Grain Blog for lots of tips on how to eat while traveling.  For me, I like to pack nuts, apples, lettuce wraps, hard boiled eggs and I always have one of those little tuna packets with me.  I also like to make my own cereal bars (and these are super easy to make and taste better than that awful store-bought crap.  http://againstallgrain.com/2012/08/11/glutenfree-cereal-breakfast-bars/  
  • Tools – Have the right tools in your kitchen.  If I was going to be stranded on a deserted island and could only bring one kitchen tool besides a knife and a fork (with electricity of course and an abundance of food – hey this is my fantasy…) I would bring my Instant Pot (although my KitchenAid was a close second.  Those attachments and the machine count as one, right?).  How I went so long without an instant pot can only be summed up that I am a big, fat chicken who was afraid she’d blow her house up.  Hasn’t happened yet.  What has happened is I make fantastic meals in a fraction of the time. Now I have more time for fantasizing about that deserted island and grocery shopping on line.
  • Research – You can’t do this alone.  Believe me, I tried and failed.  Visit the different blogs and web pages out there.  My favorites are Against All Grain, Whole30, Nom Nom Paleo and Physicalkitchness.  You can find their web pages or look them up via social media.  I have found a plethora of support and it makes me not feel so alone in this.
  • Shopping – Eating paleo can get expensive but there are ways to save (both time and money).  Our local grocery store will do the shopping for you and bring it to your car. I love this.  While I’m prepping my meal plan for the week, I shop online and pick the groceries up two hours later. A shame they don’t unload them for me, but that’s what the Hubs is for.  Also take advantage of sites like Thrive Market.  The discounts I get by shopping at their site more than make up the annual fee.  And they ship fast.  Whole Foods –  did  you know some stores deliver?  OMG!  And right to my office door. Then there is Costco for things I buy in bulk like coconut oil, ghee, nuts, nut flours, etc.  I also shop Amazon for deals as well.  Sometimes you even get same day delivery.  Wow. How lazy am I? Although I prefer to say I’m efficient and making the best use of my time. I round my shopping out with local farmers markets when I can get to them.  I really need to be better about that.
  • Keep your pantry/fridge stocked!  Things I ALWAYS have on hand: coconut milk, coconut oil, ghee, bacon, nuts, nut flours, almond butter, sunbutter, cashew butter, bone broth (more on that in a minute), avocado oil mayo, honey, arrowroot powder, spices, chomp sticks, compliant apple sausage, chicken, coconut aminos, apple cider vinegar, Nutpods creamer, fresh fruit and veggies, tuna, eggs and almond milk.  There’s more and maybe my next post will be a lists of all things needed.
  • Broth -Make your own.  It’s super easy.  Especially with an instant pot.  I’ve been making Rebecca Katz’s Magic Mineral Broth.  I make giant batches of it and then store some in the freezer.  It is the base of all my soups, etc.  And when I’m not feeling well I like to sip on it.  If you are going to buy broth, make sure it’s bone broth.  Much better for you.
  • Go see an Integrative Specialist.  Get tested for food allergies/intolerances.  Or follow the Whole30 plan. It’s not easy but 30 days is doable and isn’t your health worth it? You will thank Melissa later.
  • If changing your whole routine is too large a task at the moment and it seems overwhelming to you.  Then make one small change at a time.  However, if you really want to get good results, the Whole30 is a great tool to follow.

I could go on and on and I’m sure you feel like I have.  This is just something I’m passionate about and believe in. By taking an active role in your health, you can change the outcome.  Sure there will be days that are more difficult than others.  There will be some blips along the way but it’s all part of the climb. YOUR climb.

It’s the Climb – Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
“You’ll never reach it”

Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I’m not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody’s gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It’s all about, it’s all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

The Prednizone

Nope, not a typo. I’ve entered back into The Prednizone. Third day in and I’m exhausted. I haven’t slept in two days, I’m cranky and just so darn tired my eyes hurt. But I have to power through a few more days of this hell . Why did I give in and let them prescribe this to me? Well, it’s keeping me out of the hospital. That’s why. There will be times I must have a prednisone burst because of my asthma and ABPA, and this is just one of those times.

So, because I’m so wiped out from this trying to breathe thing, I’m making very simple meals, one that flows into another. Quick and not energy zapping. I bought cauliflower and sweet potato rice this week and have used it for breakfasts and dinners: under fried eggs, under a Hawaiian chicken patty and added to other leftovers. A little pop of color and it tastes great. We don’t waste food here so one meal is just repurposed into the next. Even breakfast can become a sweet potato and some leftover pulled pork with avocado. It’s using what you have and yet being creative. Last night, I took a sweet potato and then covered it with leftovers consisting of broccoli,  riced cauliflower and sweet potato, ham and apple sausage and then drizzled my dairy free ranch over the top; a simple meal that was pretty to look at and yet quick and filling.

Eating healthy doesn’t have to be difficult. I do all my prep work on Sundays so the rest of the week is a breeze. Heat and eat. And by repurposing leftovers, you are keeping things interesting and also not wasting food.  The key is to prep things on Sunday which can be worked together during the week.

My ranch dressing recipe:

1/4 cup avocado mayo

about three tablespoons of coconut milk or enough to get a ranch dressing consistency

1/4 tsp celery salt

1/4 tsp onion powder

1/2 -1 tsp dried dill (I like lots of dill)

small pinch of salt and pepper

mix until the consistency is smooth and this will last a week in your fridge.

Another tip is to take that small amount of   Dijon mustard you are about to throw away and add a little champagne vinegar and honey. Shake well and you have a nice vinegrette. Again, no waste.

Once you get the hang of repurposing meals, it gets easier. Honest. And if I can do it, so can you. So, what are you batch cooking this week and how will you turn those varied leftovers into meals?

Signing out from the Prednizone. Maybe I’ll get a nap today. Oh, who am I kidding?

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Of all the things I’m bad at, breathing is at the top of the list!

Asthma. I have had it pretty well under control… until this week. I’ve been suffering the granddaddy of all asthma attacks all week and now also have oral thrush. Really?!! Because of course I do. I finally gave in and went to urgent care today because my peak flow was hovering around 150.  My personal best for all you knowing asthma sufferers is between 480 and 500. For those of you not in the know, we people who suck at breathing have to stay on top of this and have an action plan in place for what to do as the numbers drop that goes something like this and In this order:  emergency inhalers, breathing treatments, urgent care, emergency room then ambulance. To put this in perspective for you, I was floating between needing the urgent care and emergency room and not quite yet an ambulance. And because I’m stubborn, had I not let my husband talk me into urgent care there was going to be an ambulance in my near future. Because I’m dumb and stubborn.

Actually that’s not completely true. Those of us who suck at breathing always second guess ourselves. Is this attack really that severe? Am I going to look stupid going to the ER or calling an ambulance? Am I making a big deal out of nothing and if I just relax it’ll go away? We’ve all been there. We also know how exhausting it is not being able to breathe. I explained it to my husband like this: I feel like I have an elephant standing on my chest and I can only manage short breaths and those short breaths hurt and are laborious which exhaust me. It’s like I’m slowly suffocating and can’t get enough air. And then I panic which makes it worse. And asthma is serious folks. You can DIE from it.  And yet we tell ourselves not us. Mine isn’t THAT bad. This attack isn’t THAT bad. But let’s face it. At this point we are oxygen deprived and shouldn’t be allowed to make any decisions on our own. Right? That’s why it’s important to share with a trusted friend or loved one the warning signs and your action plan so they make sure you get the help you need and quickly.

I am now back home after spending the morning at Urgent Care. The doctor asked if I’m a nurse because I’m so knowledgeable about my illness and health and what I need to feel better. I told him I’m well-versed and have found it makes Dr. Visits more efficient by me staying organized and up-to-date on my health. He agreed and said it was making treating me easier and faster. He was able to get me a breathing treatment quickly with the right medicine and dosage that would work for me as well as the barrage of inhalers and drugs I’ll need for the next week or so. Including prednisone. Ugh! On top of asthma I also have chronic ABPA (allergic bronchopulmonary aspergillosis) so my lungs are damaged. While I was weaned of prednisone and have been in remission I know there will be times when I will need a prednisone burst to get over the hump. And as much as I hate prednisone, I’m quite knowledgeable  in how to survive it. I picked up a very strong probiotic (VSL3), stocked up on kombucha and licorice tea and am steeping astragalus root in my tea. I will also make sure I give my body plenty of rest the next few days. And, most important, to take my prednisone in the morning so it does NOT affect my sleep. All things I’ve learned after being on prednisone for 9 years (been weaned off since January). I will also behave and do breathing treatments every 3-4 hours for the next few days.

And I rushed home to tell you all of this because what I really wanted to share with you is, one, the importance of listening to your body and, two, the importance of understanding your health and the care you need and to be prepared for Dr visits- Keep a list of your current meds, and any allergies and what has and has not worked in the past. It is important you take an active role in your care. Ask questions. Make sure you understand all instructions and that you have everything you need before you leave. If your Dr forgot to prescribe something. Say something! Honest, it’s ok! It’s totally ok! Because in the end, your health is your responsibility.

And now that the shakes have stopped from my treatment I’m going to take a nap.

May the breathing gods ever be in your favor!

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